BETRAYAL Episode 58
BETRAYAL
Episode 58
*Amara’s room* “i really don’t know what to tell you, besides my advice dosen’t count. Does it?” Amara asked after listening to all i told her concerning Benjamin and Mike. She truly was right. “i really won’t involve myself in your affairs any longer, just follow your heart” she concluded. ___ Mike really was the person my heart yearned for and following it could bring my troublesome spirit to rest, but how to make Benjamin understand was another heavy burden which i truly didn’t know how to face. But my greatest fear was that his (Benjamin) love could fade with time, perhaps when nature begins showing itself on me. The age difference between us wasn’t that much and i knew with time my physical appearance would change much more than his. Yea i knew it was a lame excuse but will he still love me when that happens? Can i risk waiting at least four more years for him to stand firm and be financially stable to cater for a family? What if he dosen’t get employed within that period? What if he later changes his mind about me, will i be able to make up for the lost time? Will i be able to fall in love again? Can i ever forgive myself?? No i can’t take such risk” i concluded thoughtfully. However, due to the great respect and commitment i felt for Benjamin, i made up my mind to be with him till the end of his degree exams, because I knew i won’t be able to forgive myself if he lost concentration because of me. But Benjamin thinking all was settling for good between us began spoiling me with gifts once again. At first i declined accepting them, but he kept insisting until i finally caved in. We cooked, played and gisted like we used to, but the only thing i denied him was sex. I refused him access to my body but it never bothered him because of his forthcoming degree exams which he was preparing for. *6pm, Monday evening, two weeks later* I sat beside Mike in his car, breathing quickly as i prepared myself to tell him my decision. Truly whatever agreement we were to reach that fateful evening will decide my fate and destiny. It equally was the last day he gave me to make up my mind. “i havn’t been able to decide anything” i murmured with a fast pounding heart. “c’mon don’t tell me that. Have you forgotten i gave you only two weeks to decide, why are you behaving like this?” he curiously asked. “Mike i’ll give you
an answer at the end of this semester, please allow me to focus on my studies, i can’t be thinking of your proposal when i have exams to prepare” i poured out. “i really don’t know the kind of game you are playing, seriously i don’t” he complained. “so what’s so hard for you to wait an extra month for me to decide?” i asked, “because i don’t understand you and i fear i may end up killing my time for nothing” he replied. “if you truly love me, you will be willing to take the risk” i spoke defiantly. He breathed deeply, grabbed my left hand and stared into my eyes. “tell me the truth, what’s happening please?” he pleaded. My lips quivered, while my bright eyes grew dim under his manly grasp. “but for one thing, i would have said yes this instant, and gone with you to the very end of the world” i confessed. “but what is it, Cyndii?” he asked, “what is it, my darling?” “i cannot leave him, Mike– I cannot leave Benjamin by this hour, he’s preparing for his degree exams please be considerate. Yes i’m with him, but it’s more of a friendship thing, because there is no sexual intercourse between us anymore, but you don’t have to believe me” i explained. “It is the only atonement i can offer him, i owe Benjamin this reparation for the evil i have done him and i must make it till he completes his degree exams, after which i will give you the answer you so much desire” i added. He drew nearer and kissed my trembling lips “alright i understand” he murmured coldly. “speak to me Mike, it’s hard, i know but tell me that i’m doing the right thing” i begged. He looked down and shook his head. “you are cruelly doing the right thing” he murmured and switched on his car engine. “i have to get going, i really can’t stand this anymore” he quietly added. I stared at him inquisitively but couldn’t say any word to him. I quietly alighted from his car while he furiously drove away without even bothering to give me a goodbye smile. It really was a very painful parting and i couldn’t help but wonder if he will ever return for me… EPISODE 59 COMING UP
*Amara’s room* “i really don’t know what to tell you, besides my advice dosen’t count. Does it?” Amara asked after listening to all i told her concerning Benjamin and Mike. She truly was right. “i really won’t involve myself in your affairs any longer, just follow your heart” she concluded. ___ Mike really was the person my heart yearned for and following it could bring my troublesome spirit to rest, but how to make Benjamin understand was another heavy burden which i truly didn’t know how to face. But my greatest fear was that his (Benjamin) love could fade with time, perhaps when nature begins showing itself on me. The age difference between us wasn’t that much and i knew with time my physical appearance would change much more than his. Yea i knew it was a lame excuse but will he still love me when that happens? Can i risk waiting at least four more years for him to stand firm and be financially stable to cater for a family? What if he dosen’t get employed within that period? What if he later changes his mind about me, will i be able to make up for the lost time? Will i be able to fall in love again? Can i ever forgive myself?? No i can’t take such risk” i concluded thoughtfully. However, due to the great respect and commitment i felt for Benjamin, i made up my mind to be with him till the end of his degree exams, because I knew i won’t be able to forgive myself if he lost concentration because of me. But Benjamin thinking all was settling for good between us began spoiling me with gifts once again. At first i declined accepting them, but he kept insisting until i finally caved in. We cooked, played and gisted like we used to, but the only thing i denied him was sex. I refused him access to my body but it never bothered him because of his forthcoming degree exams which he was preparing for. *6pm, Monday evening, two weeks later* I sat beside Mike in his car, breathing quickly as i prepared myself to tell him my decision. Truly whatever agreement we were to reach that fateful evening will decide my fate and destiny. It equally was the last day he gave me to make up my mind. “i havn’t been able to decide anything” i murmured with a fast pounding heart. “c’mon don’t tell me that. Have you forgotten i gave you only two weeks to decide, why are you behaving like this?” he curiously asked. “Mike i’ll give you
an answer at the end of this semester, please allow me to focus on my studies, i can’t be thinking of your proposal when i have exams to prepare” i poured out. “i really don’t know the kind of game you are playing, seriously i don’t” he complained. “so what’s so hard for you to wait an extra month for me to decide?” i asked, “because i don’t understand you and i fear i may end up killing my time for nothing” he replied. “if you truly love me, you will be willing to take the risk” i spoke defiantly. He breathed deeply, grabbed my left hand and stared into my eyes. “tell me the truth, what’s happening please?” he pleaded. My lips quivered, while my bright eyes grew dim under his manly grasp. “but for one thing, i would have said yes this instant, and gone with you to the very end of the world” i confessed. “but what is it, Cyndii?” he asked, “what is it, my darling?” “i cannot leave him, Mike– I cannot leave Benjamin by this hour, he’s preparing for his degree exams please be considerate. Yes i’m with him, but it’s more of a friendship thing, because there is no sexual intercourse between us anymore, but you don’t have to believe me” i explained. “It is the only atonement i can offer him, i owe Benjamin this reparation for the evil i have done him and i must make it till he completes his degree exams, after which i will give you the answer you so much desire” i added. He drew nearer and kissed my trembling lips “alright i understand” he murmured coldly. “speak to me Mike, it’s hard, i know but tell me that i’m doing the right thing” i begged. He looked down and shook his head. “you are cruelly doing the right thing” he murmured and switched on his car engine. “i have to get going, i really can’t stand this anymore” he quietly added. I stared at him inquisitively but couldn’t say any word to him. I quietly alighted from his car while he furiously drove away without even bothering to give me a goodbye smile. It really was a very painful parting and i couldn’t help but wonder if he will ever return for me… EPISODE 59 COMING UP
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