BETRAYAL Episode 59
BETRAYAL
Episode 59
I cried in my room as i thought over Mike’s behaviour. “have i lost him forever?” did i miscalculate by pushing my luck to the extreme? I wondered with tears. _____ I however devoted my time in being by Benjamin’s side as his degree exams slowly drew near, equally pushing my fears and sorrows to the back of my mind. In no time i got used to my new way of living, hiding my fears with smiles, and taking life as i saw it. Benjamin equally never gave me cause to worry, he never brought up any topic that would hurt my feelings nor even mentioned Mike’s name. He truly was the ideal guy for any woman but he wasn’t destined for me. Finally the exams came and went with the speed of light. Benjamin was finally a graduate. I really can’t forget the night he graduated, how happy and overjoyed he was and the miserable look on his face as he begged for sex
after the celebration. He had insisted i spend the night in his room when we returned from the party his department organised. I agreed just to make him happy, but when he began touching me later in the night, i felt nothing but anger and irritation. I had to push him roughly away from me. “i have waited so long for this moment, why are you denying me your body, are you upset over something?” he asked anxiously, “i’m menstruating, just sleep and let me be please” i replied a bit coldly, but he wasn’t convinced. “it isn’t fair dear, why are you like this?” he begged. “seriously Ben i do appreciate your love, care and everything, but this night is going to be our last together, i have tried to develop more feelings for you but was unable to. Moreover i know your mum no longer likes me, so please tonight is our last” i plainly poured out to a visibly surprised Benjamin. He gasped, left the bed and slept on the rug without saying another word to me. The next morning i left his room before he woke up. Though what i did touched me. He however never did speak to me again. He moved{packed} out of the hostel days later without bothering to notify me. I was a bit distressed because i really never wanted things to end that way between us and would have wanted for us to remain good friends. Finally, I anxiously began waiting for Mike who never showed up nor called on phone. I soon wrote my second semester exams and travelled home for christmas months later. Three months i waited for Mike, but not even a single phone call did i get from him. I lost hope, but for my pride i would have called him myself. Perhaps he wasn’t in my destiny either. *December 22nd** I was cooking at the backyard when mum ran into the kitchen very excited and full of smiles. “guess who just visited us?” she asked happily, “i can’t guess mum, pls tell me” i begged. “Mike came with his parents, they are in the sitting room with your father” she said to me. I quickly dropped the kitchen spoon i was holding, without minding where it fell nor the rough clothes i was wearing and ran into the sitting room where dad sat with Mike and his parents. I greeted and welcomed them happily. Mike stared at me with a smile, understanding the girlish shyness and sweet fear that had changed me into a timid girl. He stood up without wasting time. “Cyndii please i have something to tell you” he calmly said. “let’s go outside dear” he begged. I breathed deeply, looked at my dad who nodded in approval, shrugged and left the room with him. “i have borne my impatience and pride for the last three months,” he said when we got to a lonely part of our compound; “but i now must speak to you, for i can bear it no longer, Cyndii. Oh, do not turn away from me! I can’t hold my pride anymore, I love you, and i want you to be my wife– my wife, darling; and i will love you– I will cherish you– I will spend my whole life in working for you, I have no hope so great, so sweet, so dear, as the hope of winning you.” he poured out. I made no answer. Yet my silence was more eloquent than words. I listened with a happy smile. “you are my fate, my destiny!, if only you will say yes to me,your love would crown a king. I beg of you, say yes to me this instant. Surely great love wins great love and there could be no greater love than mine” he begged desperately. It was at this stage that our eyes met. The next moment he clasped me to his heart, pouring out a torrent of passionate words– such words, so tender, so loving, so full of passion and hope, that my face grew pale as i trembled and listened. Just say yes to me and by Easter we will get married” he proposed. I raised my eyes to the fair, calm heavens. “yes Mike i accept you” i finally opened up with tears. He smiled happily as we hugged each other, but deep down i still felt an uncertain fear. EPISODE 60 COMING UP
I cried in my room as i thought over Mike’s behaviour. “have i lost him forever?” did i miscalculate by pushing my luck to the extreme? I wondered with tears. _____ I however devoted my time in being by Benjamin’s side as his degree exams slowly drew near, equally pushing my fears and sorrows to the back of my mind. In no time i got used to my new way of living, hiding my fears with smiles, and taking life as i saw it. Benjamin equally never gave me cause to worry, he never brought up any topic that would hurt my feelings nor even mentioned Mike’s name. He truly was the ideal guy for any woman but he wasn’t destined for me. Finally the exams came and went with the speed of light. Benjamin was finally a graduate. I really can’t forget the night he graduated, how happy and overjoyed he was and the miserable look on his face as he begged for sex
after the celebration. He had insisted i spend the night in his room when we returned from the party his department organised. I agreed just to make him happy, but when he began touching me later in the night, i felt nothing but anger and irritation. I had to push him roughly away from me. “i have waited so long for this moment, why are you denying me your body, are you upset over something?” he asked anxiously, “i’m menstruating, just sleep and let me be please” i replied a bit coldly, but he wasn’t convinced. “it isn’t fair dear, why are you like this?” he begged. “seriously Ben i do appreciate your love, care and everything, but this night is going to be our last together, i have tried to develop more feelings for you but was unable to. Moreover i know your mum no longer likes me, so please tonight is our last” i plainly poured out to a visibly surprised Benjamin. He gasped, left the bed and slept on the rug without saying another word to me. The next morning i left his room before he woke up. Though what i did touched me. He however never did speak to me again. He moved{packed} out of the hostel days later without bothering to notify me. I was a bit distressed because i really never wanted things to end that way between us and would have wanted for us to remain good friends. Finally, I anxiously began waiting for Mike who never showed up nor called on phone. I soon wrote my second semester exams and travelled home for christmas months later. Three months i waited for Mike, but not even a single phone call did i get from him. I lost hope, but for my pride i would have called him myself. Perhaps he wasn’t in my destiny either. *December 22nd** I was cooking at the backyard when mum ran into the kitchen very excited and full of smiles. “guess who just visited us?” she asked happily, “i can’t guess mum, pls tell me” i begged. “Mike came with his parents, they are in the sitting room with your father” she said to me. I quickly dropped the kitchen spoon i was holding, without minding where it fell nor the rough clothes i was wearing and ran into the sitting room where dad sat with Mike and his parents. I greeted and welcomed them happily. Mike stared at me with a smile, understanding the girlish shyness and sweet fear that had changed me into a timid girl. He stood up without wasting time. “Cyndii please i have something to tell you” he calmly said. “let’s go outside dear” he begged. I breathed deeply, looked at my dad who nodded in approval, shrugged and left the room with him. “i have borne my impatience and pride for the last three months,” he said when we got to a lonely part of our compound; “but i now must speak to you, for i can bear it no longer, Cyndii. Oh, do not turn away from me! I can’t hold my pride anymore, I love you, and i want you to be my wife– my wife, darling; and i will love you– I will cherish you– I will spend my whole life in working for you, I have no hope so great, so sweet, so dear, as the hope of winning you.” he poured out. I made no answer. Yet my silence was more eloquent than words. I listened with a happy smile. “you are my fate, my destiny!, if only you will say yes to me,your love would crown a king. I beg of you, say yes to me this instant. Surely great love wins great love and there could be no greater love than mine” he begged desperately. It was at this stage that our eyes met. The next moment he clasped me to his heart, pouring out a torrent of passionate words– such words, so tender, so loving, so full of passion and hope, that my face grew pale as i trembled and listened. Just say yes to me and by Easter we will get married” he proposed. I raised my eyes to the fair, calm heavens. “yes Mike i accept you” i finally opened up with tears. He smiled happily as we hugged each other, but deep down i still felt an uncertain fear. EPISODE 60 COMING UP
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